As depressing as it sounds, I’m starting to think that I can never go back gamin’. I would LOVE to pick up Turok for 360 or start a new campaign in Mass Effect tonight, but I can’t deny the improvements in my life since I’ve stopped playing.
It’s a strange feeling, but I’m much more interested in my own life now. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve set and obtained personal goals in the past. But until recently, I’ve never experienced a daily desire to achieve those goals. Like for instance, I actually look forward to studying for the LSAT. How fucked up is that? Before, I would have had to force myself to study for 10 minutes before deciding I was too tired to concentrate. One thing would lead to another, and then I’d that a 4 hour Halo 3 break. I’m exaggerating (a bit), the point I’m trying to make is that things are going well and I’d be stupid to to slip back into my old ways. Right?
February 25, 2008 at 9:26 am
For me, seeing how much I started to get done in real life when I quit gaming was shocking. Now, when I think of going back to playing for a few hours straight, I realize what I won’t get done in that time if I do, and go back to finding the vision for where I really want to be…which is not old, lazy, weak, impoverished, but really good at games someday