I stayed up until 2:00 a.m. Tuesday night watching Roll Bounce. Yes, Roll Bounce, the “award winning” movie staring Lil’ Bow Wow and Wayne Brady about 1970’s Roller Discos. Don’t worry, as I’m typing this post I’m hangin’ my head in complete and absolute shame.
Unfortunately, Roll Bounce is just the tip of an ever growing iceberg. Over the last two weeks I’ve been watching an increasing amount of TV every night. Last night was my personal crescendo; I sat down at 7:00 and stared at the boob-tube until well after midnight. Five hours wasted and today I can barely remember what I watched.
The whole point of giving up 360 was to improve my life, not substitute one addiction for another. My problem is not a desire to watch a particular show, or play a certain game, it’s that I feel an overwhelming sense of emptiness. For me, TV and 360 take away that feeling, at least for a while. I don’t want to get too new age, or touchy-feely, but I do think I’ve been going about this process backwards. Instead of cutting out the addiction, maybe I need to concentrate more on what is creating this empty feeling?
I think you’ve nailed something there. That can be hard to figure out sometimes, thus the failure of “simple formulas” to fix things.
Good luck, and I hope you keep writing. It will definitely help a lot of people.
just ask yourself “what i want to do with my life?” and don’t cheat on answer!