On Friday I took my cable box to work with me and left it there for the weekend. Lately I’ve been increasingly using TV as an escape, and thought, if I removed my ability to watch TV that I would have a more productive weekend. Basically, I just want to force myself to study for the LSAT. Unfortunately, I find myself gravitating to the computer now. Wasting hours reading blogs and playing poker. Maybe addiction isn’t the right word to describe my problem. Maybe what I really need is more self discipline?
The issue I’m having is that it just feels natural/right to walk over and turn the computer on. Forcing myself to do something else feels foreign and somehow wrong. Perhaps its thousands of hours of practice, molding my brain to think this is the best environment for my own well being. I can remember waaaay back at the beginning, when I first got my Nintendo Entertainment System. Back then it was difficult to play for more than two hours. I remember getting a headache after staring at the screen for too long. Why doesn’t that happen to me anymore? Is it the quality of the monitors/TVs? Or maybe I’ve just practiced so much, that I’m really good at this now.
